There's no where to move on.
This is when you realise that your life has fallen to pieces. At first the idea of being sick attracts you to a whole new level. The love for attention seeking. You thought you were invincible, but are you really? It's not an epiphany, its not like she was dying. Have we forgotten the thing we all feel? Being Frightened. You're only twenty four and you have a kidney condition. Things will only become worse. I have found a death for you, it'll be renal failure. All you can think of is how to take that sleeping pill to stop it. What's it? It is the thoughts that get you. Who will control them when I am awake. You won't. You're with someone else, wondering if someone will smother you when you need to be smothered; how much space you'll get when you need space. Who would have thought having too much space would be a problem for you. I would have been perfect but honestly, I am already dying. The signs and the symptoms are all on an early onset. Thi...