Turnings that make Circles.

Hi. I have to tell you and before I go, I will. At least here, I will. I know I don't have a chance of being blocked or disconnected here in any manner. I have loved you from the first day to.. Love doesn't have a defining period. It's without boundaries and time. That's what you wrote for me. I am going away, but I am here. You'll know how to find me, if you ever need to. It's been seven years jaan. I have never hesitated to call you jaan. She said she wonders how it feels. So I told her. I told her it felt like you want to blame something on someone because you dont know where you went wrong. But you know where you went wrong. But you still want to blame it on something. But for me, being who I am, it's interfering with the rules of God. Who to love and how to love. And how much. You're still looking for someone to blame. And the one you want to blame, can't even say hi to you when  you are standing less than ten feet in front of them. Even with t...

In the eventuality of events, everyone just gets up and leave. I am growing fat. Fatter. I stopped the things you thought I could never stop. But sometimes I just do it anyway to be rebellious. And when there is a lot of hatred. Just to hate you a little. I sleep well. Pills or no pills, sleep is sleep. I guess we'll never know. I hate your friend. I always had a bad feeling about her, just never said anything because when you have a heart break friends is all you have left. In my case, they left too. In the end, it's best to remember. Everything and everyone is temporary. Don't attach  yourself to things or people, they either break or get lost or they just walk out. Good byes are so difficult, even when no one is reading your shitty blog. Memorised songs become faded tunes, and suddenly you can't even remember the singer. Everyone spends sometime opening the lyrics and singing them out with the song. Then you grow up and realise. You don't have to nec...

Three more days. I'm still waiting for you to get back to me. She said to me,' You are nothing to the stranger, that is why it wasn't necessary to message you before leaving.' There was a little heart break at the entire sentence, and I laughed it off. ' I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain .' There was this movie that you asked me to watch. It was about how New York got attacked by some aliens, and the hero of the movie was in love with this girl; and the girl had dumped him. But he goes across the city to see if she's okay and if she needed saving, not caring if he died or not. You said you would do that for me. You said it, even when we weren't together. ' Dil haray pukaray tujhey, manja ray, mala le mujhey. Sun pyaaray lagalay galay' ' Someday we gonna rise up on the wind you know Someday ...

Count down. 6 days from now. You have six days and forever. Haha. Just six days. If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I've known for a while that you left. You were to leave, I know that. When? I didn't know that. Now that you are gone, I feel a little free. I feel heavily disappointed by the fact that you left, and that too without telling me. You said you'd be there for me. 'So where were you when all this I was going through?' You said you'd tell me when you leave. You're the one who has been full of lies, all this time. I really did love you. I hope the best for you, the best there is out there. It's time now. Time to let go off you and this blog. I started blogging because of you and I'll stop because of you. Dost, take care. 'Since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while Since I first saw you And it's been a while Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been a while Since I could call you And it's been a while Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been a while Since I can say I love mysel...